College Crush

Earlier this week I met up with an old college friend that I hadn't seen in about five years.  I didn't think much of it, just a couple of old friends catching up.

The conversation was simple at first, but we hadn't been sitting more than five minutes when he mentioned how he was completely moved on from a long relationship he had just been in.  Weird, abrupt.  He then asked me if I was dating anyone, which of course I said no.  And just like that I felt like I was on a date.

"Do you see yourself getting married one day?" "Yeah" I replied, "I do."

"I always remember that one summer we worked together, I thought you were amazing. I loved..."

I'm flattered (of course), but this does not seem like catching up talk.  Especially since I was only three sips into my coffee!

"Have you ever thought about dating me? Did you like me in college?"

Crap, think of something to say, something nice...and don't smash him to pieces.

"Um, I guess I'm not opposed to the idea, but uh, I need to think about it..."  Hoping the panic in my head doesn't trail off my lips.

Conversation moves on for another hour or so until I need to go.  I feel totally caught off guard by his constant flattery.  What in the world will he say next?

Winding down we work on the ever awkward goodbye.  Conversation is choppy, and its clear neither one of us know what to do.  And then mid sentence he interrupts me...

"Can I kiss you?"

PANIC button engaged. Freak out now.

Now normally I don't make a habit of refusing kisses, because really they are quite nice.  But I am also a little too nice, so I refuse because I don't want to give Sir Awkward any ideas.  You know since, I don't really know if I want to date him.

"You just look so stunning right now."  Ah yes, I am standing in the perfect place for the sun to just highlight my best features.  It has to be the sun...my hair looked wretched.

"No, but that doesn't mean you can't later."  Ok, maybe the later thing is a little mean since I really don't know how I feel about the guy. 

He is embarrassed and starts apologizing like crazy, I tell him its fine and I appreciate him asking.  Obviously it is time to leave now, so he sticks out his hand for a handshake.

A handshake.  Really?  You just wanted to kiss me and you want a handshake?


Poor guy, I did feel bad.  But, asking a girl out after five years is a little awkward...

I give this one a 4 out of 5...based on the level of venting I needed to do the rest of the day.

We are hanging out again soon...so stay tuned.

Weekend at the Movies

I have been known to open my mouth without thinking...which causes awkwardness to abound.  I sent an e-mail to one of my best friends without thinking.  And I have yet to live it down...

So its not just the guys, we ladies can be awkward too...

Behind the Blog

My life is just plain, well awkward.  Yeah...

Especially when it comes to interacting with guys.  After some really incredible awkward moments I thought I should share them with the world.  According to some of my friends, my life is more awkward than most.

Is that a good thing?

Enjoy, and feel free to share your awkward moments with me!